So, all the studying done prior to this lsats, have come to waste.  I canceled my test score and preparing again in October.  Not to be an emo kat, I am in a despair-ish mood.  Just with my GPA and my failed LSAT attempt, it seems as if I am not capable of doing anything well.  It feels that my ineptitude is just a never ending cycle of mediocre set forth by my predestined status as “average”.  And, what I am is nothing but a dreamer.  Yet I fail.  In life there is supposed to be variance, ups and downs, which make it more than interesting.  Lately, I have not seen an up.  I have not seen any light that shows that I am on the road to success.  I am going to sit back one day in my chair and say “hey I made it”.  It seems inevitably that I will be sitting on a different chair dreaming “to make it”.  I want this to be an amusing rant I can later read in my life of glamor waiting to publish it in my biography so that any dreamer like myself can have hope.  Yet hope is nothing but a lie one tells himself/herself to continue chasing an empty dream.

End Note:  I am going to start taking up meditating.