Within the past couple of days, I have been reflecting on the past three and a half years of my life.  The period of time that I was supposed to become successful, whether be starting  a business or master poker player.  Yet, what occurred was mediocrity from every angle.  I am terrible at poker and at best made a couple of thousand.  I did not create a business, nor even had a structure started.  I achieved mediocre grades, when I was supposed to do fantastic.  My lsat score was subpar, when I was supposed to ace it.  Each moment in time was just another failure waiting to be tallied on the scoreboard of life.  I am extremely unorganized, messy, and practically an embarrassment (or amusing) in public.  I hate how even I can listen to myself and realize how ridiculous I sound.  Yet all this is going to change.  There is a new chapter in my life and things will be different.