Sadly, this will be my first post in 2 months, and for all the readers out there… if there are any, I apologize. And not to say that everything has been uneventful enough to the point where I wouldn’t post anything, but that I guess I was kind of “too busy” or “too scared” to really post what I really wanted to. I was given the advice from a stranger today that I should never have to explain myself, and honestly, I’ve never heard truer words than that. But to get along to the story, these couple of months, not only the last 2 months, but I guess everything that’s happened to me in the past year has been an experience that has changed me or I “want” to say has helped enlighten me to become the person that I am today. From me breaking up with my girlfriend, and sadly, I still think about her every day… It hurts, and I hold myself back from thinking about it, but she has honestly made such an impression upon my life that I can’t really do anything but learn from the experience and just grow from it.

But fuck that shit. I guess I have been really busy for the past couple of months. I don’t believe I missed blogging about my brothers wedding (October 8th), and that event itself IS from birth until now the highlight of my life. My brother just got fucking married “officially” and I didn’t even have a single thing to say about that? Forget that. My brother’s wedding was probably one of the most majestic and wonderful experiences that I’ll ever have and uphold. I hope my wedding can be half as awesome as that. I’ve been to a couple of weddings before, and being a PART of a wedding and being at a wedding are two entirely different things. Just to be able to say that you’re a best man, and say that you’re the groom’s brother? That itself is a mind fuck. I won’t go into details of what happened that night, but I myself will know that It. was. a. goddamn. great. night. whether I regret some of my actions or not, I had an amazing time.

It’s 3:45am right now, and I really just wanted to do a little catching up right now. Sadly, I may not be at my most comprehensive level, and I may be talking in riddles or might not be as direct as I want to be (I’ve always had that problem), but I just want to say life is good. As much as I bitch about what’s going on. And today was probably one of the worst days that I’ve encountered in a while, but… in the end, I know that it’ll all be worth it. Later tonight, I’m going to my Mac Miller concert. I fucking love Mac Miller. I don’t give a shit what people have to say about him, whether they don’t like the beats that he produces, his “Mickey Mouse” lyrics, or whether he’s so damn young. But you must understand, this kid is only 18, and he’s brilliant. He’s already more enlightened than most of the entire world’s population. So hate him all you want, but fuckit, I respect him.

I guess that kind of adds on to why I’m so depressed today, and why this “tragic” event has caused me to come back to grinding for the dream. I forget that though it’s the little things that make your life great, it’s also the most stupid little things that get you down. And the thing is, I can’t let those things break me. I don’t know, I’ve kind of lost my train of thought for this post – here’s the project that I’m currently working on.

Not fully up to date. You’ll see it some day.