TIME TO REJOICE!

After a week of being scared shitless of whether my girlfriend was taken captive in the depths of Mexico, the burden has finally been lifted! She’s back home in the states safe and sound!

I briefly mentioned in an earlier post of how my girlfriend went to visit mexico, and I didn’t say much more due to the reason that I didn’t want to jinx anything. Seeing that there’s some crazy things going on in Mexico, and I’ve only heard terrible rumors and stories of people getting killed, gutted open with their organs being removed just so that they can be used as storage compartments for drugs. Needless to say, I was pretty damn worried.

But hey! this is a victory post! A happy time! REJOICE EVERYONE! The universe has finally realigned! It’s now time to get back to my banal and common-placed life, where nothing really happens. It’s okay though because I get to  pretend that I AM the most interesting person in the world and everyone/thing revolves around me.

Summer Grind

Every year, I feel as if I have the same goals, yet never are they fulfilled.  Empty hopes and dreams I always tell myself and always fall severely short.  This summer will be different.  Each week I will update this blog with my life regime.  My goals are:

[ ] budget money wisely

[ ] be more fit

[ ] better at basketball

[ ] make money

[ ] be super pro at the LSATs

Each week will chronicle my progress, and yes PROGRESS not lack therof.  This summer will be EPIC.

Promise

Just only recently we got close benysigloo even though I still remember the awesome Mrs. Kelly days.  And for sure we will continue to have crazy adventures.  And when I heard the magnitude of your plight, a part of me died.  I couldn’t grasp the idea that such an awesome, talented, smart, kind-hearted soul is experiencing what you are.  Like SurrealExchange, I am speechless.  All I can say is, I will be there to help you out anytime.  That is a promise.  No questions asked, if I can help you I will.  And I always keep my promises.

Keep Your head Up

If there are any fans out there, I’m sorry for the delay of my postings.

Since Benysigl0o wrote his post describing his life, I’ve been in constant turmoil in regards to how to respond to it.  I was personally struck speechless in regards of whether I should talk to Benysigl0o himself, treat whatever that was created on the blog to be strictly of the blog and continue blogging about my own life, or whether I should do this or that, but yeah, I really had no idea how to react. I was absolutely taken back at how much my friends life has changed within such a short span of time — I was and still am lost for words.

However, as lost as I am, I do have some thoughts that I want to contribute.

Benysigl0o, you are and have been one of my closest friends since we were in high school. I’ve always looked up to you, I honestly have. From being damn intelligent to being able to charm your way out of the most severe situations, you’re one of the funniest and most kind-hearted, genuine guys I know. And I HATE to hear that your living situation is so terrible right now. I have knots in my stomach just knowing that you and your dad are out there struggling so badly just for a place to live. And I just want you to know, if you need anything, I’ve got you. Need a place to stay? I GOT YOU. I swear, I will do anything in my power to help you out.

But I know you’ll be okay. You’re stronger than that. You’re a survivor. I also know, I don’t think you’d ask for help, even during the toughest times — you have a shitload of pride. lol. But I just want you to know, that ALL of us, we’ll be here for you, man. Regardless of anything, we’ll be here for you.

And as the great Tupac once said,

“We ain’t meant to survive, cause it’s a setup
And even though you’re fed up
Huh, ya got to keep your head up”

Keep your head up, friend. We love you.

3 years

My momma always said, “Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get.”

Forrest Gump Benysigl0o

3 years ago if you asked me to describe how my life 3 years from then, 99/100 times I would have never envisioned it as it is now. Hard to believe i’m only 20 and those times are are probably going to end up as the happiest times of my life. Its easy for me to look back to then and realize how spoiled I was. I had a nice home to live in. I never had to count the dollar bills in my wallet because I knew at the end of the day it would be replenished as it always does. Always came home knowing there would be food on the plate. I acted like a machine would always automatically pay those stack of letters and bills atop the table. I had a Mother and a Father, back then, a somewhat functional family. The same ones I begged/annoyed until I got a nice car.

Things are going so well these days I guess. Im typing this in a room of a ex-church no bigger then my room at my old place. Only difference being I share this room with my dad and dog for $900 a month(cable included=)) There’s no laundry machine, no garage, no couch. I got lucky though, there’s room for a mini fridge(even though there is absolutely nothing in my fridge ever except for a piece of cabbage and coke). My neighbors are literally next door, makes me feel like I’m living at a dorm..yay? On Wednesdays, this ex-church I live in has like fellowship nights or something, consequently flooding the outside of my little house with A LOT of strangers. That car I begged for, its rotting at some dealership now waiting for me to save $7000 to fix. I enjoy it though, my dad drops me off everywhere I need to be like old times. Those bills on top the table that I said used to be paid by a machine.. well those are my responsibility now. Honestly though, paying bills is pretty fun especially when you cant afford them all. I literally never know what im going to get. No water, gas, phone, electricity, tv, internet, seeing repo-men come try to tow my dads car. Experienced it all these last 9 months or so. Insignificant things like turning off the lights, saving power, looking at that “how much you saved” on those grocery receipts, matter to me now. What kills me most inside is my Dad though. Im sure all of you guys reading this friend or not, have never and never will see my cry. The other day I saw my dad take off his shirt, he looked like he came out a Nazi concentration camp. I must confess a tear might have come down my face. Hes been working harder and longer then ever just to keep our lives sustainable. I know he barely eats anything if anything cause he uses his whole paycheck on paying everything on the bills first. When he does eat its always like 1 samsclub hot dog and at night if I didn’t bring anything home, nothing.  I’m thankful he has no health problems though. Dad I Love You! even though you will never read this cause you don’t now how to go online. Anyways this is getting too long so I’m going to cut it short. You know when you hear those stories about how a student has to take a break from school to work cause of financial misfortunes, and then they end up working that minimum wage job for the rest of their life. I’m scared I have fallen down that dark path. Its funny how much life can change in 3 years, it really is as Forrest said. I guess my dream is too retire my Dad to some exotic island. Going to have to grind through all those little bumps on that road to my dream.

benysigl0o grindingforthedream

ps. I havnt been to school in a long time, its 6 am, i have not slept .not gonna proofread, excuse my grammEr

benysigl0o’s life

I would introduce myself with my real name but I guess ill follow the lead of Luckykat and Surreal and use my E-name. Hello readers my name is Benysigl0o1343985. I started off at Mount San Antonio College as a full time student. After a year I was a part-time student part-time worker.

it has already been 3 years and still no transfer. Ive seen my GPA fluctuate between the 2’s to the 3’s to the almost 4’s.. and then back down again. Ive taken so many variety of classes for different majors but my interest level in any of them is as low as eating a blind raccoon.

Remember in the movie Matrix Revolutions when Neo was stuck at the train station? The “in between” place with the Little Indian girl, looking for a way out. I’m pretty much at that train station right now…I cant find a way out so im just going to wait for a train to come and free me.

part 2 coming in like 2 hours after i finish watching From Paris With Love

AnotheRamble

It’s pretty late at night or should I say early in the morning, and I’m not quite in the writing mood. However, I do want to keep up with this blog as much as possible, so I’ll blurt out whatever I need to keep this blog active. And seeing that my writing capabilities are not at its highest peak at the moment, I’m just going to post my haphazard thoughts as bullet points.

  • HUNGRY AS HELL (4:18am) – Wow, I only had one meal today.
  • Relieved that school’s finally over (only for 1 week. shucks)
  • Worried, now that girlfriend is in a war infested country (mexico)
  • Contemplating whether I should watch Hot Tub Time Machine.
  • Lying in bed trying to think up great, interesting aspects of my life (story of my life)
  • thoroughly enjoyed watching Karate Kid, though it was a bit long
  • been on a monster kung fu craze — makes me want to start training and doing wushu again
  • the thought of food’s still crossing my mind. pizza’s, garlic bread… WAh wah wah!
  • birthday brunch with my brother tomorrow (dim sum? not my favorite choice to eat, but I’ve got to say, I miss it)
  • my house is pretty damn cold
  • Not going to lie, but I’m pretty disappointed with my grades. (I’m sure this will come up again in a future post)

Well, I think that’ll suffice for now. I kind of like this whole bulleted form of random thoughts. It makes my whole blogging experience a lot easier. But I have got to say, if I want to improve my writing skills, I cannot keep this up.