Wild Wonderments

While I was studying, I had thought up of hundreds of topics, rants, and just crap that I wanted to talk about. But the second I finish covering all of my material, all that stuff that I wanted to blog and rant about just seems to have slipped out of my mind. It’s probably just the late night cramming session that’s keeping me preoccupied. I hope it just means that my mind’s spinning and digesting my newfound knowledge of information that I’ll probably forget in about 12 hours.

I know most people always say that cramming isn’t ever the key to getting anything done, but it amazes me with how much I can learn in such a short amount of time. It makes me wonder whether if I had consistently worked diligently in school, and I mean since the beginning from grade one, I’d be somewhere else.

I was talking to an old friend of mine that I had not talked to in a good couple of years. He was a Freshman when I was a senior in high school, meaning he’s graduating from high school this year. When I met him 4 years ago, he wasn’t that special of a guy, just a well mannered kid entering a school where popularity was key. He actually reminded me of myself when I was younger. (key word, younger). He was polite, smart, and had charisma — all the aspects to make it in this world. By coincidence, he had decided to take Architecture as well as join Cross Country and Track. All of which I personally would like to say, were my pride and joy in High School. Sparking my interest, I kind of took him under my wing. — Well, not exactly, but I would like to say that I helped him become who he is today. I talked to him, I treated him like a friend instead of referring to him as an underling or just another freshman. I think that’s what most freshman really need to know, that they shouldn’t be scared of talking to others, even if they’re however many years older than you. Because chances are, they’re not that much different from you.

Well, to cut to the chase, this guy is going places. He’s enrolling into Stanford next year. He became the president of Leo Club, and harnessed all of its connections and capabilities. This guy was able to juggle school, sports, extra curricular activities, and all that other stuff that high school kids have to deal with. He’s not a hermit. He’s not an alpha-nerd. He’s just like the rest of us, and he was just able to grind for his dream at a higher capacity that I would have thought possible.  All I’ve got to say to the world is, look out for Tim Huang in ten years. I wouldn’t be surprised if he eventually becomes the key to world peace — props to him.

Now, after seeing where he’s going, I wonder whether I could have been like that. Whether I could have ever had the diligence to continue perusing towards an unknown future at such a young age. Even now, I’m still stuck in a moment at a time. I think about what I’m going to do later on in the day, and what I think about normally consists of eating, sleeping, and just wasting time. I don’t want to be just that guy cruising along with his life anymore. From here on, I would like to say that there will be no more late night cramming sessions. (Well, until Thursday but that’s because that’s when my last final is at) And that my life will be progressing with a sense of direction. I’ll continue to set goals for myself, and continue to try and better myself daily.

Every goal I set, will work for the betterment of myself. Each goal will become a lego piece that continues to be an addition to the future castle that I am building for myself. That way, by the end of this grind of life, the castle will hopefully become the reality of my life.

Ps. Sorry if there’s grammatical errors, bad choice of wording or whatevers. It’s late, and I wanted to let the world know my peace of mind.

And failed. (Very fucking emo post)

So, all the studying done prior to this lsats, have come to waste.  I canceled my test score and preparing again in October.  Not to be an emo kat, I am in a despair-ish mood.  Just with my GPA and my failed LSAT attempt, it seems as if I am not capable of doing anything well.  It feels that my ineptitude is just a never ending cycle of mediocre set forth by my predestined status as “average”.  And, what I am is nothing but a dreamer.  Yet I fail.  In life there is supposed to be variance, ups and downs, which make it more than interesting.  Lately, I have not seen an up.  I have not seen any light that shows that I am on the road to success.  I am going to sit back one day in my chair and say “hey I made it”.  It seems inevitably that I will be sitting on a different chair dreaming “to make it”.  I want this to be an amusing rant I can later read in my life of glamor waiting to publish it in my biography so that any dreamer like myself can have hope.  Yet hope is nothing but a lie one tells himself/herself to continue chasing an empty dream.

End Note:  I am going to start taking up meditating.

Something is better than Nothing

I know that none of us have written much since this blog was made, but we’ve all been busy. But I thought about it; and the reason we made this blog was to show how each of us develop as time progresses. But if no one writes anything, then what’s the point of having this right?  And so, this is me dropping in from a final infested week to write a little something something.

Oh! Instead of it just being Luckykat and I, writing for this blog, we’re going to be joined by a couple more people! Well, at the current moment, they seem to be pretty preoccupied with their own things, but don’t be surprised when you see other people posting! And if anyone wants to contribute anything, just send us an email at grindingforthedream@gmail.com, and you’ll be given the freedom to write about whatever you’d like as well.

Dreams

I “lahkyakt” am a dreamer.  Everyday in my apartment, walking to class, eating lunch, waiting for the bus, on the plane ride home, etc., I dream.  I dream of becoming someone famous/rich.  I dream of achieving all the goals that I set out in my life to do.  People close to me know me on talking like I HAVE already achieved my goal, not how to REACH my goal.  I am that type of person.  But as this person, I have come to realize some other thing about myself that I believe is beneficial to my success.  I would rather knowingly try 1 million things that have less than 1% chance of succeeding than to not try at all. I would burn/waste capital and fail on ridiculous dreams, than to just be mediocre and accept the inevitability of my life.  Even with the limitations (intelligence, height, good looks, charm, etc.) I have, I still believe I am capable of achieving certain things that I view in my surroundings.  For this reason alone, I don’t doubt if I am going to succeed, but when.

SurrealExchange’s life

Well, I’ll start with an informal introduction since I’m not always one to be the most conventional or what not. Unlike Mr. Smartypants Luckykat, I attend the University of California, Riverside. I’m just a politically termed, “normal” guy trying to make it in the world — not really having any real sense of direction, but kind of just working towards one ultimate goal of being someone and actually doing something. And that’s where both Luckykat and I come in. You’ll see two totally different guys using two entirely different aspects striving for one same desire — a grind for the dream.

Luckykat’s life

My name is luckykat. I am attending UC Berkeley with career aspirations of becoming a scumbag lawyer. All that is needed to know about me is my obsession with money, success, fame and glamor (whoever can tell me where that is from is very cool). Nothing really stands out for me right now, just an average student. I am hoping that things will change. Yet, thats all I have right now hope and determination. And, that is all that anybody needs.