Maybe I’ve been masking the inevitable, maybe I’m just living life as if it were a fairy tale, maybe there is nothing wrong. But in reality, I. Don’t. Know. Anymore. (Yeah, all of that looks like jumbled nonsense. haha)

I’m not sure how much I’m willing to post, or whether I should write anything at all, but these internal and external conflicts are making my life more convoluted than I’d like it to be… Bah, whatever. I’ll figure it out. I sound like a fool sitting here complaining. It’s time to make things happen.

“The ones who make it complicated never get congratulated”

Well, since we haven’t seen much of luckykat here at GrindingFortheDream, I’ll try to be posting more often about what’s been going on in my life. I’ve been pretty busy, and just been lost within my own world lately. I’ll try to fill you guys in within the next couple of days.

Oh yeah, if anyone’s trying to read up on luckykat, you can catch what he’s been up to at http://www.thecuriouskat.com

Thank you dedicated fans for checking up on this dead site every once in a while! ❤

Every year at UCR, Post Secret holds an event on campus where students will anonymously post their own secrets on this bulletin board for the rest of the world to see. And I’ve always been entertained by some of things that people have to say, but yesterday, as I was reading them, it’s sad how depressing some of these peoples’ lives are.   Some people are inflicted with such drama, or they just have so much doubt in their lives, that they just need to go outside and savor some of the good things that surround us. — I have class right now, but I’ll be back to post more or what not… maybe.

I just read this article that explains how the presence of toys in our childhood has limited our creativity and not allowed our minds to explore and mature as someone who grew up in the early 19th century. It’s crazy how much of our lives are impacted during our childhood. Anyways, it’s a good read — check it out!

It’s finally winter break here in socal for us quarterly UC students, and while I wait for Berkeley to get out, and luckykat to start blogging again, I guess I can continue my rants or what not about life and other little conundrums that occur.

For one thing, I’m not really looking forward to this Christmas break — not that I have anything against free time and being unproductive, but it’s just the fact that I’m so broke. I’ve been worrying about money since the girlfriend’s birthday, and right after that, there’s christmas, and I have no idea how I can even support other people when I can’t even support myself. Lately, I feel as if I’m turning into everything that I’ve strived to not be. I feel as if I’ve always had a pretty strong idea of what I was doing even when I was most lost, but as of late, things have been looking pretty bleak for me.